seriously dressed up

today's supposed to be halloween. i know wen hui was talking about dressing up, but i don't think any of us did. well, just now, after my maths (it's so interesting i just have to blog about it), there was this girl standing out side the room. she was wearing this long black coat. and she painted her face and exposed arm skin white. and she had bloodstains thingy on her arms. and her face was painted like those wayang demons.

aiyo. how brave of her to do that by herself.

p.s. need some help about the skin layout. the text in one column isn't lining up with that of the other column for some reason. :p


added on after my linear algebra lecture:
i've changed my mind. that girl is from the science club. just now in lecture, there was she and another 2 people dressed up like darth maul. it's some publicity thing i think cos they were giving out some sweets and paper saying happy halloween from the science club. cool! wonder if arts did anything like this.

just blog a while lah. so lazy to work. don't know what's wrong with me lately. so not in the mood for studying. my linear algebra, i just couldn't make myself sit down and figure out the problem. sigh. i'm going to fail my exam. sigh.

anyway, i finally figured out why i seem to be cantoring so badly recently. yes it is bad by my standards. i know that i can do much better. the reason is...the mic. i figured that i seem to have this psychological complex thingy that when the mic is there, i tend to put in less effort in my singing than if the mic isn't there. seriously. when i'm practicing without the mic, it's as good as i can make it. but when i'm up there. sigh. you'd think that after 5 years of cantoring i'd be ok with it by now. haiz.

well, nus choir is finally giving us a break to study. or to try to study. the only thing that i've really been studying for is genes. i'll fail linear algebra and i'll fail english lang. there's no way anyone can fail lit if they can somehow backup the crap they write. and i doubt it's possible to fail cultural either cos it's all analysis like lit. but...2 more weeks till exam. our december practices will be at siglap. yay!!

today, i've been slacking like mad. like now, i'm blogging. i know that i've got other things to do. like figure out my maths tutorial. haiz. get a grip gal.

i wish i could turn back time.

p.s. yes another skin change. the dragon rose one was pretty but not quite my style lah. so going back to basics. still playing around with it.

oh well...

bit lazy to blog. but, anyway, here goes.

now i'm officially 19. haha. not that much feeling about it. one year older. hmm...presents! yes yes. i got that white bag that i described already from mummy. sumi, jasmine, duan hui they all gave me a belt (yay! i finally got a decent belt that's mine and not daddy's), a bracelet, and bangles! poh lin gave me this cute handphone pouch. andrew gave me vcd, "march of the penguins!" haha!!! daddy got me this weird game. "sandoku" something like that. some logic game. looks fun. but as if i got the time to go figure it out. :D

anyway, went out to jurong point for lunch today. wen hui's birthday today so they celebrated for the 2 of us together. here's a photolog. (excuse the sizes. still can't figure out the golden ratio for this)

first, had english in the morning. which duan hui didn't attend cos she was rushing out her essay. so me and her take a pic before going off. (haha! me and all my pimples)


and then, 5 hyper girls, me, sumi, wen hui, jasmine, su hui made our way to boon lay. in the mrt...






on arrival at boon lay, a certain field next to the station caught our attention, and that of our budding photog wen hui. a bunch of dustbins and beer bottles in the middle of the freaking field. god knows why they were there in the first place. it had a bermuda-triangle-sque feel to it.

were exchanging stories about mysterious disappearances in the world. then got a shock when wen hui disappeared from sight.

but we found her again. supposed to meet poh lin but that gal was still at her hall. so we decided to go to jurong point first and wait for her there. and there, the rest of them were having fun reliving their childhood. first run to the toy shop where there was electric organs for sale. (at a very good price i must add) hang around there having a mini concert. then headed to toys r us. and had a ball of a time. haha! as if we had a deprived childhood. playing with the soft toys (seeing barney all over the place). cookie monster and ernie doing the hokie-pokie. gosh. poh lin must have been surprised to find us there. they were so engrossed in the toys, they seemed to have forgotten that they were hungry. and that they had to go back for lecture by 2.

anyway, went to fish and co for lunch. joking about their halloween special: ghost fish. saying that the fish will be invisible since it's a ghost. haha! anyway, we shared seafood platter. wasn't too bad. sang birthday song for me and wen hui. bit weird. the rest of the patrons were staring i'm sure. then later on the waiter came over to ask who's birthday it was. geez. *shy* chit chatted a bit. ok, a lot. i'm sure su hui and poh lin are going to become best friends. heehee!

food!

(kinda dark. wrong lighting. still can't figure out my cam well enough)




anyway, the grand total of our lunch is...(cue drum roll) $104.80

haha! did we really eat that much??

so anyway, after lunch. had to rush back to sch for lecture. pity. wanted to visit poh lin's hostel. never mind next time.
more monkeying around in 96 back to school.





and then, hung around with duan hui, who was skipping lecture again. then headed for genes and soc. saw feli yong at the bus stop. almost didn't recognise her. genes and soc, dr ge was going thru the mid term paper. and that woman, expects us to bring binoculars or something. she was using ms word and she persisted in using the micro mini font. sigh. poor me forced to sit at the back so i can use the power outlet for my laptop had to squint and force my poor eyes to make out what she was trying to do, since she wasn't going to release the paper on ivle. (something about people cheating other students by selling past year papers)

was chatting with a friend during lecture. (i just gave up on trying to figure out what dr ge was doing) and that friend of mine. gave me a big shock by tellin me that she had decided to quit school. and start work. it just came out of the blue, what i least expected from her. i think she shouldn't give up on studies just yet. but then, it's her own choice. sigh. life's so weird.

cruel, crazy, beautiful world.

supposed to be doing my maths tutorial. but i think i'll give up on that one. i couldn't even do the first question. sigh. never mind.

really happy that i've finished my lit essay. must be a record seriously. 1500 word essay done in about 5 hours. woah. but of course, it's possible that the thing is total crap, so... got so much to write about the donne one. so used to using old english for donne that suddenly using modern english seems weird. (btw, i did the "elegy xx: mistress going to bed" for donne) as i was writing it, suddenly there was so much in that poem to talk about. but sadly, had to limit myself to what i have. i think i could actually do a 1500 word on that poem alone. haha! the other poem was crap. i did alvin pang's "public display of affection". didn't have much to write about that one. crapped up some stuff that what's his name, irving(?), taught long time ago about surveillance and panopticonism. that idea is so cool. wish i could do some paper on that.

anyway, mummy got me a new sweater and bag. the sweater is not that bad. it's peach colour with red colour, similar style to my gray one, but not so thick, so it's easier to bring around. i think cos i was always complaining that my gray sweater is too thick that's why they bought me another one. can fit everything into my new bag. gonna try it out tomorrow. the bad thing about the bag is that it's white. but other than that, it's so nice!

other stuff. i found out what that old priest said in "Dawn of the dead". remember i was saying i've got this gut feeling that the priest plays a significant role in the movie?

Old Priest: Many have died, last week, on these streets. In the basement of this building, you will find them. I have given them the last rites, now, you do what you will. You are stronger than us... But soon, I think they be stronger than you. When the dead walk, señores, we must stop the killing... or lose the war.

yup. although i didn't bother analysing it yet (too busy with my lit). notice how the priest used the word "us"? why did he do that? he wasn't a zombie at that point of the movie. maybe the priest is a...greek chorus? he's underlining the main crux of the story. don't know. :D

moving on. watched "the wedding planner" yesterday. oh my! it's such a romantic movie. cliched though it may be. i mean, picture this, mary and steve (the 2 main characters) dancing in the park during the outdoor movie, almost kissing and it starts to rain. or better still, steve just walked out of his wedding and wants to stop mary from getting married cos he loves her, and he gets caught in a traffic jam. i mean, how stock situation can that be? j lo wasn't too bad in this one. bit like "shall we dance". yup. really enjoyed it. hope i didn't laugh too loud at some points. geez. i'm such a sucker for romantic movies like this.

saw toh ying at parkway just now. still the same girl. still reading those fantasy stories. haha! she's at MDIS now. don't know doing what. she was complaining about how busy she is with all her assignments, practicals, reports etc. haha! now she's back in the system like the rest of us. seriously miss that girl.

another long day tomorrow. sian.

When We Two Parted

When we two parted

In silence and tears,

Half broken-hearted

To sever for years,

Pale grew thy cheek and cold,

Colder thy kiss;

Truly that hour foretold

Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning

Sunk chill on my brow -

It felt like the warning

Of what i feel now.

Thy vows are all broken,

And light is thy fame;

I hear thy name spoken,

And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,

A knell to mine ear;

A shudder comes o'er me -

Why wert thou so dear?

They know not I knew thee,

Who knew thee too well -

Long, long shall I rue thee,

Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met -

In silence I grieve,

That thy heart could forget,

Thy spirit deceive.

If I should meet thee

After long years,

How should I greet thee? -

With silence and tears.

-Byron, 1816-

yesterday was kinda an interesting day.

firstly, prof philips wasn't around so he sent ryan bishops to come and screen "dawn of the dead". sumi, jas and su hui crashed to watch the movie. well, it was a good movie but very very very gory and gross. especially the parts where the zombies were eating the people. the way the flesh came off so easily. the blood and gore. gosh. it was supposed to be a horror film but for some reason, the 3 of them were laughing hysterically for a lot of parts. something about the short guy forcefully reminding them of howard.(btw, he seems to be popping up in random conversation quite a bit these days. why?! am i never to be free from him?) jean was asking me, "why your friends laughing so much?" ok, some parts were funny, but not all the parts what. anyway, to me, the movie was scary. me and jean scared ourselves when we had to climb that quiet, deserted stairway to go to the toilet. kinda thought that a zombie would jump us. guess that's the way you get too caught up in the movie. anyway, i only got real terrified at night, when i was alone in my room, trying to go to sleep. my mind started over-reacting. sigh. but i think the dreamcatcher worked cos there were no zombies invading my dreams. that ryan bishops also, at the end, telling us, "i think you've got a lot to chew on now." and saying that the moral of the story is "you need to be able to run fast."

to me, what was scary about the movie was not cos there were zombies popping up all over the place but that, the zombies were actually common people. for some reason, these people just couldn't stay dead. and it's scary cos they're out to eat human flesh. quite sad the part when we saw the 2 children that changed into zombies and the guy was forced to shoot them. it's like, (what's the word?) gothic? the one where things are not quite right about a familiar situation. the people don't have a choice whether to become zombies or not. they are just forced to come back and wreck havoc.

that movie kinda didn't have a definite resolution. in the end the 2 of them just flew off in the helicopter. don't know what happened to the zombies. the movie kinda reminded me of a lot of my lit stuff. especially rhinocerositism. the zombifications of people was like that. you could somehow predict which ones were going to become zombies. and at the end, when the black guy said that he's going to stay, and was going to shoot himself but later changed his mind and ran off with the woman. reminded me of berenger initially wanting to turn into a rhino too, but later changing his mind and deciding to fight it. and the part in the front where the woman insisted that the zombie was her husband and was insisting on going to him. reminds me of mrs boeuf and her rhino husband. and the thing about the zombies' memory and instinct, making them come to the shopping mall, reminds me of the theme of hiroshima mon amour, about the woman's memories. and i wonder, what was the function of the priest that appeared near the beginning. it's definitely a significant moment. but i had no idea why. wow! so much stuff can be drawn from a lit analysis of this movie. it's cool. but what's the cultural stuff in it, i don't know. haha!

moving on. the second big thing that happened to me. i lost my genes and society essay. not exactly lost lah. i accidently deleted it. what i think happened was, i was working on it on tuesday night. very tired liao. i was going to delete the essay outline cos it was totally useless anyway. the two files were side by side. i think, in my tired state, i clicked my essay instead of the outline, and i didn't notice my mistake when i emptied the recycle bin after my session. so the next day when i wanted to take a look at my essay, i realised that it was gone. sigh. tried to retrieve it. duan hui taught me this interesting thing about system restore. pity it didn't work though. i guess it doesn't work for deleted files. ian says that the only way of retrieving it now is to use some sort of special police technology. which i don't think i'm desperate enough to use. but i was so distracted that i couldn't pay attention to lit lecture. i was msning ian for help. lucky i recorded lit lecture. have to sit down this weekend and listen through to it. anyway, very very sad about that cos i was almost done with it when it was accidently deleted. but lucky i discovered it was gone. i have to hand it in on friday. imagine if i didn't realise it was gone and tonight i turn on my comp at 11pm to print it and couldn't find it. *shock shock horror horror*

anyway, i rewrote it last night. i think it was a record. me writing that essay in approx 3hrs. given that it was a short essay. think i'm not going to get a good grade for it. i wrote too generally. not enough space lah. i mean, how can i present the arguments for and against transgenic animals in 2 pages (2 sides of 1 piece of paper)? there's just so much information that is so interesting to talk about. anyway, it's done. now just left the final editting and print and hand in tomorrow.

i guess my preoccupation with the essay totally drove the zombies out of my mind during the day, so at least i was able to function normally. but at night is when my mind overreacts and starts thinking morbid thoughts about death and dying. kinda hard to explain exactly what goes through my mind at those times. i understand what that girl in "veronika decides to die" means when she's describing her panic attacks. yup. whenever i think about what it would feel like to die - i mean, it's got to be a real big thing that causes your soul to forcefully leave the body. gives me the heeby-jeebies thinking about it. thinking about it in the daytime is ok but when i'm trying to fall asleep... dear god, when i die, let me go blissfully unaware in my sleep, not forceful and dramatically like those zombie thingys.

other nicer stuff. i'm reading "the templar revelation". gosh! it's so cool!! haven't finished reading it yet but here's some stuff that struck me as interesting. apparently, (and i wanna check up on this) the shroud of turin is a fake made by da vinci. the image there is the first photograph prototype. apparently the head is an image of da vinci himself. but the body is a genuinely crucified guy. apparently, there is the image that the head is seperated from the body, suggesting a beheading (john the baptist). there is also this suggestion by another artist's work that jesus wasn't crucified. it was a surrogate that was on the cross. that one is the most earth-shaking claim i think. i have no idea whether or not these claims they make are true or not, but
it's really interesting just reading their arguments and evidence.

choir moves back to CFA

yup, the nus choir has finally moved back to it's own home after such a long time of being at pgp. cfa isn't too bad. still got a bit of constructions going on. the room is so dusty. and they made us take off our shoes. anyway, supposed to meet felicia and mei si to go there, cos mei si rooms at raffles hall, just next door. but me and felicia decided to go ahead and explore a bit. so we went. came to one set of glass doors. push and pull. can't open. sigh. so go looking for another entrance. hey look! more glass doors! again, can't open. but we can hear music which means that somehow, there's a way in. so, we went round. finally found a set of glass doors that leads to a lighted 'foyer' area. haha! opens it and goes in. wei wei the welcoming party is sitting there. directs us to voice class in the dance studio downstairs. so we thought, still early, but go and have a look lah. 2 sets of glass doors leading to the outside staircase. again, push and pull, didn't open. sigh. the other one did.

the outside staircase was actually supposed to be emergency exit (according to a computer printed sign hanging over it). anyway, the dance studio was nice. got mirrors round 3 walls, nice and echo-y. (but that's not too good for singing cos it makes you sound much better than you really are) ruben was so glad we were in the dance studio cos of the mirrors. we all know it's been his long cherished wish to have us look at ourselves while we sing. anyway. the other choir rooms are so cool too. the sop room has those special padding on the walls and (check this out) a baby grand piano. how cool is that? the rest of the rooms (i think. cos i didn't see the guys' rooms) has only upright piano. so we had a mini concert at the piano before practice started. reminds me of the old days. btw, yan ting is so li hai when it comes to singing. she was doing "beauty and the beast" before choir started. omg! beautiful. then later on when she was demo-ing for the sops, she was so powderful! gosh!! she should join some talent competition or something. surely can go far.

kinda scary during combined sectionals cos we were directly under another dance studio where they were doing indian dance. could hear all the stamp stamp of their feet. we kinda expected the (rather low) ceiling to collapse any moment. bizarre. oh ya, we split up into small groups to sing too. that is nerve-wrecking. lucky i got jenica and li yi with me. and lucky we're only doing "sweet honey sucking bees" for now. once they start with lily, it'll all go to pieces. but if wei wei is to be trusted, none of the other groups are doing much better. haha!

yup. brain dead liao. so tired. ciao folks!

p.s. time soon for another background music change. so keep your ears tuned!

google earth

gosh! google earth is so fun. i've been kinda guiltily playing it when i was supposed to be doing other stuff like my biotech essay. ;p but, anyway, it was fun. me was exploring singapore from the sky. so few people actually did any placemarks on singapore. but that's changed cos of me. haha! it was like a real life lesson in geography and map reading. but the images are out dated. i know cos when i tried to find mj, it was still under construction. weird. so it was probably taken in 2002 cos we can roughly recognise that it's mj but the buildings are not all done. found my house as well. haha! i couldn't find it the last time cos i read the wrong place. i mixed up kallang and aljunied on the image. tried to find kulai also but the images were too blur to see anything. daddy tried to find the place he used to stay at in sydney but couldn't recognise any recognisable landmarks. but still quite fun. it's like taking a virtual holiday. of course, i wish all the images were clearer. but i guess it's impossible in the basic version. need to pay to get a better version.

anyway, feels kinda guilty that i was slacking a lot this weekend. i mean, i did write a draft of my biotech essay. and i spent the entire saturday finishing most of my maths tutorial. the stupid tutorial. took me an hour and 2 foolscap papers to do one crazy question and i'm sure it's wrong anyway. very calculation intensive. i bet matlab could take less than a minute to do it. which is why i have to master matlab soon. and the english tutorial. as usual, i'll be sitting outside the tutorial room half hour before tutorial, frantically finishing up my tutorials. haha! don't know how i'm going to survive the rest of uni. sigh.

a lot of time, i wonder why people like sumi and duan hui are all so busy with this and that and i don't seem to be. why? WHY??? is it ok to be doing like this? probably not. so why am i doing it?

anyway, yup, done for now. monday coming yet again. long day. llllllllllooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggg day.

close encounter with dr gwee

ok, background. i downloaded google earth on tuesday. today i was showing sumi and jasmine the thing before lit lecture started. so maybe i was talking kinda loud. i remember i was saying something like "so fun to play". something like that.

and suddenly, dr gwee popped up out of nowhere and asked, "Playing with google earth?"

it literally came out of nowhere. *shock of my life* so i went, "erm...ya."

then he asked, "is that singapore?"

i was not viewing singapore. i was viewing vatican city (one of the preloaded destinations to see)

me: "er...no. it's st peter's bascilica."dr gwee *nods* and walks off.

omg. i can't stand it when teachers suddenly pop up like that. it freaks me out. give me the feeling that i was doing something i shouldn't. anyway, later we laughed it off.

p.s. i got 72/100 for genes and society! so proud of myself!!! haha!

i wanted to blog about something i saw in duan hui's blog. but i just can't string the words together. so i'll just put a simple update.

BIG NEWS!!!

I PASSED MY LINEAR ALGEBRA MID TERM TEST!!!!!

it's just 22/40 but it's still a pass. considering that there are even maths major students who failed, i think i did pretty good. haha!!

ok. all for now. brain block.

"shooting stars are stars that are given a last burst of glory...then they are replaced by new and brighter stars."

posting on behalf of andrew

hihi! this post is actually andrew's creations. it's 2 songs that he composed and wants to be put online. so here goes:

THE CRUCIFIXION

They found Him in the garden
Praying with His friends
He told them "I am He"
And they took Him away
His friends ran
they didn't want to be with Him
they left Him all alone to die with thieves

CHORUS
we deserve this
but this man has done no wrong
what has He done to deserve this
Nothing
we have cheated and have lied
we have killed and we have stolen
but still He died for us

they brought Him before the hight priests
who accused Him of saying
i will destroy the temple
and rebuild it in three days
"how can you do this?" they said
they condemned this as blasphemy
and sentenced Him to die (CHORUS)

He was handed to the soldiers
who viciously beat Him
they forced a crown of thorns
upon His head
they gave Him a purple cloak for fun
play the prophet Christ
who beat you (CHORUS)

they brought Him before the crowd
with Pilate as the Judge
"who should i release?" He asked
Barabbas or this man
Barabbas they shouted
Barabbas they cried
Pilate had no choice he sentenced Jesus to die (CHORUS)

He took up the cross and walked
He fell so the soldiers got simon
to help Him
His face was wiped by Veronica
as reward He left His face upon the cloth
women of Jerusalem do not weep
for me but for your children (CHORUS)

He was nailed to the cross
by people He would die for
Father forgive them they know not what they do
they raised Him up
with thieves on either side
if you are the Christ
save yourself and us (CHORUS)


you will be with me today He said
you will be with me in heaven
Eli Eli lama sabachthani
then He died upon the cross
died for us, died for the
people He so loved (CHORUS)


HOLY SONG #1 (sorry, couldn't think of a name)

VERSE 1
When i look up into the sky
i know that someone's watching over me
ever loving, ever caring
our loving father who reigns on high

CHORUS
o god you are wonderful to me
and you have called us all to be
brothers to each other
to forgive and to love
as you loved us

VERSE 2
when i look into the sea
i know you're always watching me
and all the wonders of your creation
will bless your name and joyfully await
the day you come from on high (CHORUS)

BRIDGE
we know that you are always there
watching over us
we will glorify your holy name
in you we place your trust

O god you are wonderful to us
as we go about our day to day business
you have called us all together
brothers to each other
as your children we will bless your holy name

repeat VERSE 2

Both songs by Andrew Goh
Ok, actually the only resons I wrote these were because I finished my lit essay and that the physics teacher didn't come.

trying out new skin. comments?

i'll leave you with the lyrics of my new background song:

Go The Distance
by Clay Aiken
album: Redifineed

The Father and the Son stepped out
Looked down at the world below
A distant world where sin-strong arms
Had struck a fatal blow
There had to be a sacrifice
Across the lonely hill
Someone had to span the globe
So Jesus said I will

I will go the distance
I will go that far
I will give up everything
to bring them where you are
Even tho I could choose the path of least resistance
Father I will take the cross
I will go the distance

To think about His sacrifice
Leaves me with a choice to make
So many stand just out of reach
With eternity at stake
I can be the go-between
Who walks the extra mile
If just one should find The Way
Then it's been worth the while

I will go the distance
I will go that far
I will give up everything
to bring them where you are
Even tho I could choose the path of least resistance
Father I will take the cross
I will go the distance

I will go the distance
I will go that far
I will give up everything
to bring them where you are
Even tho I could choose the path of least resistance
Father I will take the cross
I will go the distance
Father I will take the cross
I will go the distance

close encounter with fr lu

today me and daryl did the st ant devotion cos dawn couldn't make it. btw, zac did the "seas obey and fetters break" thing. and for a first time cantor, he wasn't bad at all. quite ok actually. anyway, guess what...fr lu did the devotion. damn. omg! i went confirm with him if he was really doing the st ant devotion. it was my first time ever that i spoke to him. it was weird.

me: fr lu, are you celebrating tonight's devotion?
fr lu: *blur look*
me (thinks i talked too fast or something so i slow down and talk louder): are you celebrating tonight's devotion?
fr lu: *blur look*
me (thinking wat da hell?!): are you gonna do tonight's devotion?
fr lu: *blur look*
me (kinda pissed now): tonight's devotion and mass. you doing?!
fr lu: yes yes.

OH. MY. GOD.

the only other time i felt like that is when the school brings us on fieldtrip to old folk's home and we try to talk to the old folks. they've got "H-U-H-?" written all over their faces. gosh. i DO NOT ever want to talk to fr lu ever again.

p.s. sorry i'm changing my blog song again. i'm such a fickle minded gal. ;D

Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow,

A poor player

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then

Is heard no more.

It is a tale

Told by an idiot,

Full of sound and fury,

Signifying nothing.

William Shakespeare

haha! blogging again. monday night and slacking again. what a hopeless case i am. anyway, just came back from choir. waiting for my hair to dry before going to sleep. hurry up and dry!! newae,not that much to report. just killing time. muahahaha! weird thing that happened today. mr toh didn't turn up for tutorial. there was this old guy instead. and partly, i'm glad he took over cos he explains things when mr toh doesn't. bad part was that he checked that everyone did their tutorial. which i didn't do. not all anyway. he scolded when he found out i only did a bit of it. (i don't know how to do lah) he makes it sound so easy. sigh. never mind. so anyway, mr toh didn't come for tutorial so i'm wondering what's going to happen to the lecture. but he was there for lecture. weird. wonder why. maybe he mark our test papers until vomit blood, can't face our class anymore. haha! went through the first 2 questions of the test. i know i've got at least 7 marks already. yay! *rolls eyes* funny moment, there was this guy that "aiya!" so loudly during the test review, the whole LT laughed. and another girl that went "yay!". probably we'll get the scripts back next week. sigh.

anyway, saw hafiz today at the SOC bus stop. i asked him what he's doing at nus. but i forgot what he said. he still looks exactly the same. wearing the green camouflage. so i've kinda solved the mystery of why there are sometimes guys wearing the army uniform and walking around nus.

had another 'mini shock' at the voice class. i arrived early as usual. went to 5B. and there was no one there again! *shock* omg! did ruben walk out again??! so quickly msg felicia, ask her if the forum said anything about voice class. truth was not so dramatic. turns out ruben was busy. so we went to aunty mary again. wasn't too bad this time. sang mozart's version of the alphabet song. love it. so fun. and something funny aunty mary said. she was commenting about how we should and should not sing. she mentioned something like, "you are the N-U-S choir, not the N-U-T choir." it took us a while to get the joke.

oh ya, got the english project back. well, we didn't do that badly. at least we didn't fail. duan hui said she was expecting a higher grade. but i think we got the grade we deserved. it wasn't the best, but it wasn't the worst either. for our first university project, i think we did quite well. next time we'll do better. :D

right. better rest now so i don't screw up too badly during st ant's devotion tmr.

need to rant

part1 written friday 30 sept

need to rant very badly. just done my linear algebra mid term test. it was just short of a total disaster. sigh. it was a 1 hr test. started doing. qn 1 went ok. took 25 minutes then panicked when realised that there was only half hr left to do the other 3 qns that are much tougher. so quickly rush thru qn 2. it was on the bus that i realised that i made a serious error there. A^2=I can be changed into A^2-I=0, then (A-I)(A+I)=0, A=plus/minusI. didn't do that in the test. i screwed up. sigh. then qn 3 and 4. i could only do half of them. the other half was left blank. sigh sigh. sob sob. first time in my life that i came out of a maths test seriously feeling that i'm going to fail very very very badly. so sad. hope they mark it on a curve thingy cos i heard other people complaining that they were going to fail too. so maybe it's not just me. just depressing all the same.

haven't studied much for genes n soc tmr. i only really studied the online cd roms. :p heck lah. i'll look through the notes in the bus. anyway, it's just a gem. so not too bad if fail. of course better if don't fail lah, then can clear my gem requirements this sem.

other depressing stuff, i need to learn the psalm for this sunday that i haven't touched since last sunday. and i have to learn "gloria" that i discovered the choir learnt yesterday. and do my maths tutorial cos i better go and do a qn on the board on monday if i want to get ANY class participation points at all.

anyway, for the first time in my life, i ponned choir for no official reason. i stayed home to study linear algebra. (which may have been a waste considering how disasterous the test was) yup, wonder what hui jun's going to say. anyway, apparently they've secured the carolling slot at shangri-la on 24 and 25 dec. i told felicia to put me on the 25th slot so that won't clash with church stuff but....

this year, (read from dawn's blog) church choir isn't going to do the 24th midnight mass. the illogic of fr khoo at work. apparently, he kinda banned us from doing the high mass this time round, giving it to ronald (something about not wanting any one choir to dominate high masses. which is BS imo.) and the best part? ronald DOESN"T WANT the midnight mass. there's no logic. idiot. and btw, i don't think i'll be attending the 10am 25th mass cos of the nus carolling afternoon slot. because i thought the church choir is going to be doing midnight mass so i purposely kept 24th free to handle church stuff. but now... #$%&** fuck. (better stop before i get sued for disturbing the peace)

right. really pissed about that but moving on. this morning, had an interesting time observing people falling sleep during english lecture. somehow, madelena gets more and more boring as time passes. and she doesn't give us break either so after the first hour, we all kinda zone out. lucky there's not that much yet that isn't found inside the textbook. so at least can go home and swallow the textbook and still get it. oh, happy thing, we finally handed up the makan/sotong project. at last. can throw out all the resources from my comp. it's over!!!!!!

bought myself a bracelet at the bazaar at the central lib. so nice. i like it. it's got silver dolphins on it and a nice chunky feel. :D duan hui bought herself a mp3. it's a bit like mine. bit fatter than mine but her's is nicer colour (red). and the usb can connect anywhere, unlike sumi's and jas's zen and apple. that one needs special software but duan hui's is like mine, can connect anywhere and transfer music from anywhere.

what else? oh ya, the bazaar had a 2nd hand book sale too. bought books (3 for $10). got "white oleander", "wild swans" and "the templar revelation". very pleased with the last one. if i bought it elsewhere, it would definately have cost at least 20 plus. but here. yay! and sumi was so jealous cos apparently she wanted to buy those books but didn't for some reason. haha! she can borrow them if she promises to return my other stuff.

oh ya, a juicy bit of thing. go ahead and infer anything you want but, for reasons best known to myself, i downloaded a 15 second porn clip the other day. there were no restrictions or anything. didn't watch it though. it needed a special licence thingy that i couldn't get. so i thought, never mind, i try on my other computer. and there, i was told that it was coded in some way that windows media player couldn't handle. so. haha! so this proves, porn isn't as readily available as people think.

moving on. dr phillips showed that bmw short movie that guy ritchie made, the one starring madonna. it was HILARIOUS. i'm going to try to put it here. it's 7mins long. the driver drove the bmw like initial d. gosh. the best part was at the end when madonna flew out of the car, onto her butt in front of hordes of paparazzi and discovered that she spilled her coffee down the front of her pants. haha! but the bitch character she plays deserves it.

hmm...should i talk something about clay? yes i will. (can't resist) it's not really about him. it's about a song he sang. "Love of my life" originally by michael w. smith. i came across it while surfing one day. oh. my. god. it's so sweet. i just melted listening to it. it's one song that will be played at my wedding (if i get married). definitely going to put it as my background music. the lily song is getting boring.

alrighty. all for now. ranted enough. more or less happier now. :D anyway, need to sleep for tmr. to be continued...

part 2 written 1 oct

just came back from biotech exam. it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. surprising. i think i'll do ok for this one. seemed quite easy. i finished in half hour. of course there were some weird questions (something about dideoxyribonucleonic acid. had no idea what that was.) haha! not bad lah.

andrew's going for his graduation ceremony in a while. i'm not attending. no point. i'm gonna stay at home and slack and take advantage of having the house to myself. which means watching tv, playing computer, blasting my music, banging on the piano and generally making a ruckus that i can't when there are people at home.

alrighty. the end. haha!